sometimes I just hate myself.

I just wish I were nicer. why am I such a tool? now those people think I'm just a tool... just because of that one night where they didn't even talk to me. damn it. who do they even think they are? the girl even said she has found that she doesn't like to make new friends- she's made "about three" this year.

three? I guess I'm just all over the place in college. I guess I was similar during senior year of high school but yeah.

also: finished finals this morning. which was nice, I guess. it does not feel like I'm finished with school and that it's summer. at ALL. I'm ready to kill all of these drunk people though. just cause I'm so fucking tired and they're being so fucking loud. I understand that they're glad to be finished with school and such. but come ON. at some point you've got to grow up. or not?

I'm so serious. maybe I'll take one of those sedatives and attempt to sleep. see what happens. probably miss saying goodbye to my best friends who are leaving tomorrow. and that I won't be seeing for over 15 months. and then when we come back we will no longer be best friends. that would be so great. very me.

I just want to sleep. maybe I just need a good cry? no one cares, though.

whatever.

sorry. I'm feeling suicidal at the moment. apologies. apologies all around.

come Holy Spirit

thank you, Fr. Ted Hesburgh.
*** we (my section and I) got to say the rosary with him yesterday in his office on the 13th floor of Hesburgh (library)!!!! incredible. :-)

1. one more final to go! biology is over with! I hope...

2. running into my (facebook) wifey after finals this morn and having a lovely breakfast with her. I'm hoping to go to El Paso this summer- she's interning at Ft. Bliss! awesome!

3. YouTube. seriously amazing. any song or video I want to watch... and lots I never would've thought I would want to watch.


(I feel like saying I appreciate having YouTube in my life was kind of a cop-out)
3b. Science. Science is hot. :-D what can I say? I'm a nerd.

awesome. um, aweful I mean. but, sometimes awesome.

hahahaha. I'm feeling this episode of The Office right now. :-) (Women's Appreciation, Season 3)

1. geoscience final. so easy. thank goodness! I loved that class. and Prof. B. and Prof. F.

2. my bestie. Katie! I'm going to miss her. 15 months. yikes!

3. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 trailers. yay!!! I can't explain the feeling they give me... nostalgic? makes me want to cry, but in a beautiful way.



ok... now to study bio... uh oh.

dig it

and 3 more...

1. music. mainly, The Undertones concert this evening reminded me that my life would be so rediculously weird without music. I love it. the end.

2. Shia LaBeouf. HOLES- bestie and I watched this fine film after the concert (and after watching The Little Mermaid). D Tent! reminded me how much I love Texas, books (ATX represent!), and the like.

3. birthdays. Today (yesterday) was my good friend Gail's birthday. I love birthdays. Today is Cassie's birthday. ahhh! so fun! I love gift giving- my "love language" according to senior year Theo. :-)

I wish I could be your morning bagel...

once more...

1. flowers. especially tulips.

2. bio lab. and Jordan Hall of Science.

3. Thursday night tv. Betty was classic tonight. YES.