once upon a time:
- I wished for love.
- I wished for motivation.
- I wished for confidence.
- I wished I weren't the awkwardest. person. ever.
- I wished all of my friends weren't not here with me.
- I wished I could figure out how to make new friends again. good ones.
- I wished I was a bit thinner.
- I wished I wasn't the worst procrastinator of all time.
- I wished.
but where does wishing get us? I mean, really. I wished the world would get greener... but wait - I think it is! kind of! let's get down to business. the business of... wishing? no... of working for what we wish for! this is an odd post.
you said forever and always. you didn't mean it baby. (you can thank Joe Jonas for dumping Taylor Swift... the resulting song - from Taylor's end - is incredible!)
Forever and Always - Taylor Swift
Showing posts with label green. Show all posts
Showing posts with label green. Show all posts
1.21.2009
"they had an ideal product... and they canned it."
I mean- there's probably a song that I could put in the song title. I know! Rihanna!
shut up and drive. bitches.
why all the car talk? (hahaha- Car Talk = great show on NPR). well, the first topic deal ol' Dop. had us cover in Environmental Politics (oh hey class that I clearly couldn't not take) was CAFE standards*- essentially we were/are discussing car efficiency standards in the US. Last Thursday we watched Who Killed the Electric Car, which pissed me off in a way I haven't been pissed off in a long time. like whoa. like who the hell decided (GM! you bastards!) to shut the EV1 production line and then open up the Hummer one right after? This all centered around 1998/2000 which if memory serves me correctly was around the time Americans became obsessed with SUVs, the bigger the better. because Americans like size and wasting stuff? False. Americans are the largest group of consumers in the world - but they will consume what you put out there. put out the EV1 and not the Hummer. there will be no demand for such a ridiculously large vehicle. Even back then I knew something was wrong with the Hummer (I mean, come on, if that's not the most over-compensating vehicle ever then I don't know what is). but how come I had never heard about the EV1 until this movie? I'm aware that it was all based in California etc... but come ON GM. way to f*ck up your own business. the tunnel vision of the US automakers on the short term profits has been its biggest downfall. by far. if you had asked me 10 years ago (yes, at age 10) I could have informed you that the EV1 was a great idea! but I've always been a weird green freak...
"they had an ideal product... and they canned it." - Frankie (a kid in my class whom I have never met before, but who was quite vocal today)
bottom line is: American automakers are currently in the crapper. I can tell you that this "bailout" money had better be put to good use. and by "good use" I mean invested in developing an entire fleet of smaller, more efficient, and greener cars than ever before. cause hey guess what- Japan's already on top of it (2010 Toyota Prius = bigger, which Americans like apparently, more efficient, and even has solar panels on top!). GM was handed a golden opportunity and shot itself in the leg (the foot isn't drastic enough); so now it's limping around begging for money and I can't help but be pretty unsympathetic about it. the only reason I even remotely care is the fact that I now go to school in the Midwest and have seen what the closing down of car factories and the laying off of the auto workers is doing to this section of the nation. it's awful. idea! take that Hummer factory from down the street - which, coincidentally was forced to shut down because of the complete lack of profit the line was making for GM - and retool it into a factory for a new line of cars (think: Chevy Volt, among others). something along those lines. come on, Detroit, get your act together already.
*CAFE = Corporate Average Fuel Economy standards
Who Killed the Electric Car trailer:
also: this guy is awesome (one of the two Vlog Brothers, whom my friend Katie P. just introduced me to)
shut up and drive. bitches.
why all the car talk? (hahaha- Car Talk = great show on NPR). well, the first topic deal ol' Dop. had us cover in Environmental Politics (oh hey class that I clearly couldn't not take) was CAFE standards*- essentially we were/are discussing car efficiency standards in the US. Last Thursday we watched Who Killed the Electric Car, which pissed me off in a way I haven't been pissed off in a long time. like whoa. like who the hell decided (GM! you bastards!) to shut the EV1 production line and then open up the Hummer one right after? This all centered around 1998/2000 which if memory serves me correctly was around the time Americans became obsessed with SUVs, the bigger the better. because Americans like size and wasting stuff? False. Americans are the largest group of consumers in the world - but they will consume what you put out there. put out the EV1 and not the Hummer. there will be no demand for such a ridiculously large vehicle. Even back then I knew something was wrong with the Hummer (I mean, come on, if that's not the most over-compensating vehicle ever then I don't know what is). but how come I had never heard about the EV1 until this movie? I'm aware that it was all based in California etc... but come ON GM. way to f*ck up your own business. the tunnel vision of the US automakers on the short term profits has been its biggest downfall. by far. if you had asked me 10 years ago (yes, at age 10) I could have informed you that the EV1 was a great idea! but I've always been a weird green freak...
"they had an ideal product... and they canned it." - Frankie (a kid in my class whom I have never met before, but who was quite vocal today)
bottom line is: American automakers are currently in the crapper. I can tell you that this "bailout" money had better be put to good use. and by "good use" I mean invested in developing an entire fleet of smaller, more efficient, and greener cars than ever before. cause hey guess what- Japan's already on top of it (2010 Toyota Prius = bigger, which Americans like apparently, more efficient, and even has solar panels on top!). GM was handed a golden opportunity and shot itself in the leg (the foot isn't drastic enough); so now it's limping around begging for money and I can't help but be pretty unsympathetic about it. the only reason I even remotely care is the fact that I now go to school in the Midwest and have seen what the closing down of car factories and the laying off of the auto workers is doing to this section of the nation. it's awful. idea! take that Hummer factory from down the street - which, coincidentally was forced to shut down because of the complete lack of profit the line was making for GM - and retool it into a factory for a new line of cars (think: Chevy Volt, among others). something along those lines. come on, Detroit, get your act together already.
*CAFE = Corporate Average Fuel Economy standards
Who Killed the Electric Car trailer:
also: this guy is awesome (one of the two Vlog Brothers, whom my friend Katie P. just introduced me to)
11.23.2008
and in this night I do belong in harmony
I love my bestie. so much.
my friends are amazing. I hope I'm making friends here. it's hard for me to tell - it's not usually too instantaneous with me (except for bestie! but even that wasn't completely instantaneous as we had hung out before, just never actually been the only ones). I'm just so socially inept. quiet. observant. obsessive. judgemental. loving. caring. wanting. veg. home-loving. dancing. musical. there. not all of those things are examples of my social ineptness, but the first one is. I'm just chronically shy. although sometimes now not so much. I went out on Friday - shocking, I know - with three lovely people. to Mahiki. where the sexy slinking socialites go to blow off money and steam. and where we go to watch these people and chill and feel cool. and drink out of conch shells and treasure chests. we didn't do the treasure chest, but have decided it's worth it to go back for it.
Jeff. Megan. Lauren. Lisa. Christina. Bryan. MJ. Mich R. Leslie. Alex. Rachel. Kelsey. LeeAnne.
I'm sure I could call some people here my "friends" but I want to know what's happening next semester. who will I really end up seeing again and not just exchanging awkward words with when we run into each other in the DH?
when the night comes. and no one knows. i can feel it. it've got my private radio.
I'm writing here because I have a 3000 word paper due tomorrow which I'm having problems really starting to write. I just need to start. I figured this might help, getting the other things swirling around in my head out in the open. or out into the vast blogosphere. oh, internet. my friend asked why I have a blog if no one knows about it/reads it. I think it's because so people can read it. if I want them to. or if they somehow come across it. or read it on my comp screen and go to check it out. or randos come across it through blogger. just keeping my thoughts in a word document (ie. journal) just seems like they're still inside of me and not truely out in the open. not really gone from the madness of my mind.
London is a beautiful city. my mother is in town. I'm glad. I took her to Southbank today because I didn't feel like doing the typical tourist walk and there's always something going down there. I love being able to navigate the tube without having to really look at a map. and knowing my way around stations. and where to go when I exit stations. I'm finally acclimated. today on Southbank we walked around the Slow Food market - I got some bread and cheese and pears! - and saw a photography exhibition in the Royal Concert Hall which was also hosting some of the Jazz Fastival bands. so many people there. so many hip people. like Austin, but a tad more pretencious. but is it? maybe not. I felt at home. because of the hat I got at Camden Town on Friday.
triple trip to Camden on Friday! so fun- Lisa and Carolyn are the best. I love our triple. even with our lack of space. it's fun. and we've got such different personalities and interests. my flat has helped me branch out. nice.
lover you knew you had to let me go even after all these years.
I love the Baker Street tube station. freaking awesome. the various lines have different scenes from different Sherlock Holmes stories on the walls. and the tiles in the entry have Sherlock's silouette on them. and it's classic mixed with a bit of contemporary. and I just love public transport in all of its glory. the people. I love train stations. so many people. love it.
go green. what is this "green" concept anyway? how can one be green? I'm green! what does that even mean? surely it means different things to different people. I can't just use that word to describe myself and expect people to understand the various aspects and minute differences that constitute my green-ness from that of others. or why. why I am that way is so difficult to explain to people without getting overly emotional or without the other person interrupting with excuses as to why they are not that way or why they don't do certain things. my vegetarian-ness is not an attack on your lifestyle, so why do you feel so guilty? it's not like I won't talk to you ever again. we can still be friends. I like it when people don't push the issue.
actually, a lot of people here have been pretty chill about it. it's nice. people in the program. when Mich N made our flat dinner she made a seperate dish without meat in it. nice. and when Alex made dinner for Mich R and I he left the chicken out until I got my portion- so nice. it was really fun to work with/hang out with those two.
nice.
nice nice nice. so much nicer in Nice! I heart Diana. and Josh. and The Boyfriend. and junior/senior year musical experiences. I miss it so much.
we're back. we're back in san fransisco.
we're back.
and you tell me I am home.
I know I'll miss this semester so much when it's over. just like I miss last year. and last summer- oh man, last summer. it's painful how much I miss it. I really hope I am able to retain some friendships from this semester. in London. so that I will be able to remember it well. (how emo is this blog?!) :-)
and the only one I come undone for is you.
I like someone. which, as I was explaining to bestie, is the most annoying thing to me. I don't enjoy having pointless emotions... actually, I don't believe there are such things as pointless emotions, so scratch that last. it's just, annoying. but I don't know. enjoyable. and angering. and frustrating. and fun. and funny. and cute. and smile-inducing. and self-doubt inducing. and brings up the past; should I go for it? what does that even mean? how can I just allow things to progress as they will. should I see what happens? are these feelings for real? all feelings are real.
heroes and thieves at my door. I can't seem to tell them apart anymore.
and just when I've figured it out... darling, it's you I'm without.
______
Vanessa Carlton: Private Radio
also: Heroes and Thieves, Come Undone, San Francisco, Spring Street
my friends are amazing. I hope I'm making friends here. it's hard for me to tell - it's not usually too instantaneous with me (except for bestie! but even that wasn't completely instantaneous as we had hung out before, just never actually been the only ones). I'm just so socially inept. quiet. observant. obsessive. judgemental. loving. caring. wanting. veg. home-loving. dancing. musical. there. not all of those things are examples of my social ineptness, but the first one is. I'm just chronically shy. although sometimes now not so much. I went out on Friday - shocking, I know - with three lovely people. to Mahiki. where the sexy slinking socialites go to blow off money and steam. and where we go to watch these people and chill and feel cool. and drink out of conch shells and treasure chests. we didn't do the treasure chest, but have decided it's worth it to go back for it.
Jeff. Megan. Lauren. Lisa. Christina. Bryan. MJ. Mich R. Leslie. Alex. Rachel. Kelsey. LeeAnne.
I'm sure I could call some people here my "friends" but I want to know what's happening next semester. who will I really end up seeing again and not just exchanging awkward words with when we run into each other in the DH?
when the night comes. and no one knows. i can feel it. it've got my private radio.
I'm writing here because I have a 3000 word paper due tomorrow which I'm having problems really starting to write. I just need to start. I figured this might help, getting the other things swirling around in my head out in the open. or out into the vast blogosphere. oh, internet. my friend asked why I have a blog if no one knows about it/reads it. I think it's because so people can read it. if I want them to. or if they somehow come across it. or read it on my comp screen and go to check it out. or randos come across it through blogger. just keeping my thoughts in a word document (ie. journal) just seems like they're still inside of me and not truely out in the open. not really gone from the madness of my mind.
London is a beautiful city. my mother is in town. I'm glad. I took her to Southbank today because I didn't feel like doing the typical tourist walk and there's always something going down there. I love being able to navigate the tube without having to really look at a map. and knowing my way around stations. and where to go when I exit stations. I'm finally acclimated. today on Southbank we walked around the Slow Food market - I got some bread and cheese and pears! - and saw a photography exhibition in the Royal Concert Hall which was also hosting some of the Jazz Fastival bands. so many people there. so many hip people. like Austin, but a tad more pretencious. but is it? maybe not. I felt at home. because of the hat I got at Camden Town on Friday.
triple trip to Camden on Friday! so fun- Lisa and Carolyn are the best. I love our triple. even with our lack of space. it's fun. and we've got such different personalities and interests. my flat has helped me branch out. nice.
lover you knew you had to let me go even after all these years.
I love the Baker Street tube station. freaking awesome. the various lines have different scenes from different Sherlock Holmes stories on the walls. and the tiles in the entry have Sherlock's silouette on them. and it's classic mixed with a bit of contemporary. and I just love public transport in all of its glory. the people. I love train stations. so many people. love it.
go green. what is this "green" concept anyway? how can one be green? I'm green! what does that even mean? surely it means different things to different people. I can't just use that word to describe myself and expect people to understand the various aspects and minute differences that constitute my green-ness from that of others. or why. why I am that way is so difficult to explain to people without getting overly emotional or without the other person interrupting with excuses as to why they are not that way or why they don't do certain things. my vegetarian-ness is not an attack on your lifestyle, so why do you feel so guilty? it's not like I won't talk to you ever again. we can still be friends. I like it when people don't push the issue.
actually, a lot of people here have been pretty chill about it. it's nice. people in the program. when Mich N made our flat dinner she made a seperate dish without meat in it. nice. and when Alex made dinner for Mich R and I he left the chicken out until I got my portion- so nice. it was really fun to work with/hang out with those two.
nice.
nice nice nice. so much nicer in Nice! I heart Diana. and Josh. and The Boyfriend. and junior/senior year musical experiences. I miss it so much.
we're back. we're back in san fransisco.
we're back.
and you tell me I am home.
I know I'll miss this semester so much when it's over. just like I miss last year. and last summer- oh man, last summer. it's painful how much I miss it. I really hope I am able to retain some friendships from this semester. in London. so that I will be able to remember it well. (how emo is this blog?!) :-)
and the only one I come undone for is you.
I like someone. which, as I was explaining to bestie, is the most annoying thing to me. I don't enjoy having pointless emotions... actually, I don't believe there are such things as pointless emotions, so scratch that last. it's just, annoying. but I don't know. enjoyable. and angering. and frustrating. and fun. and funny. and cute. and smile-inducing. and self-doubt inducing. and brings up the past; should I go for it? what does that even mean? how can I just allow things to progress as they will. should I see what happens? are these feelings for real? all feelings are real.
heroes and thieves at my door. I can't seem to tell them apart anymore.
and just when I've figured it out... darling, it's you I'm without.
______
Vanessa Carlton: Private Radio
also: Heroes and Thieves, Come Undone, San Francisco, Spring Street
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